My New And Improved Life
This is a new beginning. No, I WANT a new start. I feel like I have to be more mature, have to be more confident and have to solve my own problems. Not that I have a lot of problems, but I want to have more control on my own life. I’m lazy, especially when it comes to school. I could be an a-grader, if I only studied. I could have so many things, if I only worked for it. I have no motivation. If I really had the motivation I could already have written so many books, have had my own magazine, my own Broadway musical, my own singing career, my own clothing line and so on.. Oh, and most important: my own A+ for Maths.
A while ago, a friend of mine told me about how she loved writing and that she was hopefully going to write for Spunk, this amazing online collection of articles, reviews and sarcasm. I’m so jealous. The fact that it is in Amsterdam, and that they have a meeting every week on Tuesday, doesn’t bother her. Why can’t I be a little more like that? I only dream, I don’t do. Secretly I think I write better than 50% of the people on Spunk. But that’s all. Writing this Message-to-the-world, I feel like I have to do something, change my attitude and get more serious. But that’s all I’m going to tell you for now, otherwise I won’t succeed. To hell with superstition.
Also, I hate weekends. I love the Fridays, when school’s out and I think OMIGOSHWEEKENDANDICANDOSOMANYTHINGSANDBEFREEANDDON’THAVESCHOOL! There I am, watching tv on the couch. There’s nothing on, so I switch to the computer. When I’ve spend 6 hours on that hideous thing, that attracts me with it’s hidden powers, I think it’s time to have some breakfast. That’s around three. So, I eat something. After that, I cling to this stoopid not-having-a-real-coloured iiyama thing again. For what? My friends are on msn. I could easily go to them and have a nice time, but the problem is, even if I’m at friends, we’re bored and can’t think of anything to do. Where’s the time of having fun with watching flowers grow, baking a cake or running on the street for no reason? I want more easy fun back in my life. These idiotic modern things bother me. Tv, computer, piss off, I want my life back. And I’m not even talking about m-o-n-e-y. Apparently you need money for everything in this new modern life. Part of the Boredom Days, it’s the frustration that I can’t do anything fun without money. YAY, let’s go to the movies.. or go swimming.. or go visit a friend in the UK.. without money, you are nothing.
That’s why I’m looking for sweet little hobbies, such as drawing a comic book or have a bake-the-prettiest-cake contest with friends.. Suggestions, anyone?
posted by Imme @ 6:22 AM
9 Comments:
If you learn to focus on one thing and manage to finish what you start, you can achieve a lot!
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Consciousness is step one. As soon as you are aware of what's happening to you, you can make changes. And in changing take it easy at first. Don't try to turn everything upside down all at once. Take it a step at a time. For instance downsize your computertime and do something else. You can do it.
I know I can do it. Shuttleruntest already told me 4 times.
Btw, Anonymous, can you reveal yourself?
You already know.
I do not! I'm very, very curious now.
bake the prettiest cake? I'm all for that! No, but I do understand what you mean.. I'm so lazy these days, and I don't get it, because I never used to be lazy! I know what to do know, do... The more I have to do, the better my motivation gets. It's weird, but it does work that way. It used to, anyway.. When I still danced, I got better grades then I do know. And that's not because it all became harder. It's because I have to much spare time. If I have so much time, I start thinking: I don't have to do that now, I still have ages... And suddenly, I've wasted my time and I have to make a test I didn't study for. If I have a lot to do, I think: Oh, I'd better do that right away, because otherwise I can't do this and that anymore. So I'm going to sport more, and find new hobbies. And (tararara) I'm joining the SOA. If that's possible.
Of course you do. Just look a little closer and you know.
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