My New And Improved Life

This is a new beginning. No, I WANT a new start. I feel like I have to be more mature, have to be more confident and have to solve my own problems. Not that I have a lot of problems, but I want to have more control on my own life. I’m lazy, especially when it comes to school. I could be an a-grader, if I only studied. I could have so many things, if I only worked for it. I have no motivation. If I really had the motivation I could already have written so many books, have had my own magazine, my own Broadway musical, my own singing career, my own clothing line and so on.. Oh, and most important: my own A+ for Maths.
A while ago, a friend of mine told me about how she loved writing and that she was hopefully going to write for Spunk, this amazing online collection of articles, reviews and sarcasm. I’m so jealous. The fact that it is in Amsterdam, and that they have a meeting every week on Tuesday, doesn’t bother her. Why can’t I be a little more like that? I only dream, I don’t do. Secretly I think I write better than 50% of the people on Spunk. But that’s all. Writing this Message-to-the-world, I feel like I have to do something, change my attitude and get more serious. But that’s all I’m going to tell you for now, otherwise I won’t succeed. To hell with superstition.

Also, I hate weekends. I love the Fridays, when school’s out and I think OMIGOSHWEEKENDANDICANDOSOMANYTHINGSANDBEFREEANDDON’THAVESCHOOL! There I am, watching tv on the couch. There’s nothing on, so I switch to the computer. When I’ve spend 6 hours on that hideous thing, that attracts me with it’s hidden powers, I think it’s time to have some breakfast. That’s around three. So, I eat something. After that, I cling to this stoopid not-having-a-real-coloured iiyama thing again. For what? My friends are on msn. I could easily go to them and have a nice time, but the problem is, even if I’m at friends, we’re bored and can’t think of anything to do. Where’s the time of having fun with watching flowers grow, baking a cake or running on the street for no reason? I want more easy fun back in my life. These idiotic modern things bother me. Tv, computer, piss off, I want my life back. And I’m not even talking about m-o-n-e-y. Apparently you need money for everything in this new modern life. Part of the Boredom Days, it’s the frustration that I can’t do anything fun without money. YAY, let’s go to the movies.. or go swimming.. or go visit a friend in the UK.. without money, you are nothing.

That’s why I’m looking for sweet little hobbies, such as drawing a comic book or have a bake-the-prettiest-cake contest with friends.. Suggestions, anyone?

Short Rant

Today, dear little children, I’m just going to rant about my day. Just. Nothing. More. Than. That.

This week, I have my test-week. Lots and lots (well, only a few, but it feels like there are lots and lots) of tests, and because I always have my mind occupied I didn’t make my tests quite well. I already failed my maths test, weeh. It’s the second I failed. Of two tests. I know.
Today, I had to do a French test and a history test. Didn’t have to study for French, it was a reading test, so we could just bring our dictionaries. Mine is probably as heavy as a full-grown Harry Potter book. At school, there were dictionaries on every table. Nice.
About history, that’s another story. I love history, but I suck at it, so I always have to study long and hard. This time, I didn’t. Instead, I was texting my boyfriend dramatic messages the whole evening. Meh. My own fault, you could say, but I am a little depressed lately, so I couldn’t help it all. I totally messed up my history test, obviously.
After those two tests I went to my friends and we stayed for, like, an hour at school. We did not have any tests. We were free to go. We stayed. My friends started to throw water bottles at each other, which was extremely funny, so we stayed. Lennaart, on the other hand, thought that we had to go, so after an hour of splashy fun we went to buy some food. Lennaart cannot cycle, honestly. And Maria and Lennaart both look like dogs. I am in a mean mood today, can’t help it.
Then it started to rain.