And yet again, there's pressure to lose weight. But I really want this job, so I'm going to have to lose weight. Bleh.

Well guys, today it's official: I am no longer with Micha Models. I think now's the time to say it.
I decided that I didn't want to lose weight anymore, so I'm going in a new direction, more commercial I think.
I'm now free to go and do whatever I want, so I'm going to look for new agencies!

Love

So, everything's a bit weird lately, but I'm glad I've made this decision and that nobody is mad about it.
I hope I chose well.

Today has been ok!

I love that song, by Emiliana Torrini, but it's also true. I had an amazing week, and a very fun weekend that I spent with my dearest friends and my boyfriend and my family and THE SUN! Yes, people, the time has come: spring is near, waiting for us to find it and welcome it into our lives again. And I want it more than anything :)
Edit: My mom fished up TEN dead frogs out of our little pond. TEN! The horror.

Cheers to a very pleasant new season!

I want to scream. I want to scream and get out of here.
I feel so.. purposeless. I don't know what I want out of life, I don't know what I want to do next year and what I can do next year. Do I want to model? I don't know. Do I want to study? I don't know.
It's crazy and I feel like I'm having a fever.
I don't want to sit on the couch all day, if I have to go through that again next year I'll die. But what can I do? Can I lose more weight? Do I even want to lose more weight? But what else? What am I destined to do? Why does nobody tell me? :(
It's superscary and I want it to stop.